Feeling depressed This pass month has been pretty bad. I got into a bad accident where my car spun 180 and set me back about 4 grand for repairs. What's worse was that I was supposed to be picking my girlfriend up for her corporate function that time and because of me, she was late. The next day, she got into an accident and called me for help. I couldn't reach her because I didn't have my car with me. I know you're thinking taxi and in hindsight, I should have even though she asked me not to go there. All these have taken its toll on our relationship and I've said some things I shouldn't have said about two weeks back. Perhaps if I had apologised there and then, I would have had her but I didn't and I guess she's fed up with me now. I can't say I blame her. She's forgiven me twice already for some stupid shit but I have not cheated on her. I must admit that I always was unsure if I would want to have children and marriage in the past but the funny thing is I realise a lot of things NOW after the break up: 1) Should have been there during the accident 2) Should not have lashed out at her for not being more concerned for my well-being considering she too had her accident the next day 3) Should have apologised immediately 4) I would love to have a family with her. (Prior to this, I was never into children) 5) I always thought some other man would make her happier than me in the past. But now, the thought of her with another man makes me physically ill. and I realise all of that after the break up. She's grown tired of 'us' and I think that's the straw that's broken the camel's back. I wish I could turn back time and prevent all the shitty things from happening between us but it's too late. There has always been this nagging thought at the back of my head that I should apologize and try and get her back because I love her that much and yet my stupid head keeps thinking it's probably for the best we've broken up. I mean, I could apologise but really, I don't want to risk hurting her again and I don't think we'll ever be the same together again anymore. Worst part of all is that it's affecting my relationship with my parents and my work as well. I feel depressed. Not just sad but depressed. I've lost all appetite for life - waking up seems a chore. Breathing is difficult as well and when I get home for the past week and a half, I sleep straight away and wake up the next day for work. Concentration and productivity's down. I brought work home to do but haven't started on shit and feel like crap to be bothered with it yet. Is there anyone who has been through a similarly shitty break-up who can tell me what you have done? I have had bouts with depression in the past but nothing this bad and could do with some advice.