This week is the first in my life I have worried about my mental health. I was already down lately but the Liverpool result has really impacted me. Luckily I have had the week of work for half term but all I've done is looked at Twitter since to weekend getting more and more depressed about the state of the club.
I've snapped at my partner and been a little short tempered with the kids, it got to the point this afternoon I suggested they go out without my as I new I'd be terrible company. I'm sat here now, with no appetite, emotionally exhausted and at somewhat of a loss at what I should do.
I tell myself I'm powerless over this and try the "it's only a game" inner-monologue but it doesn't work. I have followed the club for 30 years, my best memories revolve around United and it's my only real interest, hobby, passion. Never have I felt so unappreciated as a fan and helpless as to what is coming.
Typing this out is actually helping a little, oddly.
I'll leave it at that, feels good to be able to vent with perhaps a few like-minded others.