I'm feeling like a nomad in the football forums these days as, I too, have lost a lot of the spark I had for the modern game and how things are, and will continue to be, going into the 2020's. I have tried to determine whether that's because of the state of our club, from top to bottom, being a dislikable throng of un-relatable players, football and conduct, but I am starting to wonder if that's merely coincidence, as I'm not getting that much buzz from teams and players outside of our club, either.
I do think, however, that when your club let you down, you look at things in a different way - never in my life have I lost faith in my club or been apathetic towards it during an off-season, and I've followed us in worse times than this as far as results and the table go. There's a feeling of real disconnect that trickles from the top down - like we are the foie gras, just being steadily fattened up and readied for the kill (eventual sale) by owners and powers that be who couldn't care less that an institution is being deconstructed by their actions. Whether players are good or bad, the bottom line for me, is that they give their utmost out there... our lot don't, which makes it very difficult to get behind them, and after while, makes the whole procession soulless.
It would be easy for other fans to look at your post, or mine, and consider it sour grapes of supporters who can't handle losing or their team being usurped from their domestic perch, but the only real envy I have of City and Liverpool right now is how much their players give for the manager and the cause - it's almost alien to see a United team have the same collective desire and appetite game in and game out, and from that aspect, it is appalling that the most driven squad in the land during the Fergie era has become this bunch of charlatans who have no regard for the badge or their own litany of shambolic, uncaring performances.
As an institution, your club represents you; it's not by coincidence most pick, or indeed, stick with a club. United should represent fire, passion and daring - a club who you cannot count out because they have the pride and doggedness to give anyone a game, akin to what we were in the 80's actually. No matter how good a player, that underlying identifier should always be there and in turn, that spark and belief puts a fire in the collective support. Without it - and I feel very few players here have it - well, you're just another team aren't you? Not a United one - the same way we used to say he looks like a United player, but don't anymore because we aren't a United squad upholding this one key value that should run through us come thick or thin.
re. corruption; you can't say it's a new thing: Havelange, Blatter, Platini and hundreds more have shown us that this has been a corrupt sport for decades, the difference is, all pretense and under the table subterfuge has now been done away with, and we see, blatantly, the way the oil clubs and any other obscenely rich conglomerates can buy their way in and shit on decades/centuries of 'proper' conduct and organic development. This situation will only worsen, and we're well on the way to the Premier League, as a whole, being a plaything and an arena for these financial deviants to do whatever they want with it. The time to gripe about it isn't now, however, it was when Abramovich and people like him first entered football and were allowed to change its landscape forever. Great at the time for Chelsea, and the short-termism of making the league and United stronger (we directly benefitted from the competition to the tune of a European Cup, no less) but in the mid and long-term, it paved the way to what we see now. City put their feet under the table because they could as the avenue was there for them - it's a joke people only complain about that now, when the fruits of that 'labour' are making a mockery of everything the game should stand for.
The above paragraph, bothers me far less than the state of my own club, tbh. I'm feeling disconnected from football because of what we are; my disinterest stems from there more than anything else, which I'll wholeheartedly admit to. If we were run as we should be, with players who represented our values, I'd be OK living in the bubble of what we then were, but without it, there is no trickle effect really; no curiosity to see how other teams are doing and how it then relates to us. I simply hate the fact so many more teams try harder than us to get results, so watching other sides probably sours me even more to the players we have here. I'd also add to that that unless we gut the squad, I can't see much changing next season as I'm more inclined to believe whoever comes here will be consumed by what we are than turn the club around on the pitch. I've never thought a United squad would be better off with more than 70% of its inhabitants gone until now. You could even take that up to 80% and it'd ring true. It's a very surreal spot to be in as a supporter for decades who has seen the club change in unimaginable ways during my viewership.
I'm hoping the summer time out changes my opinion and perspective somewhat, but I've felt like this for a while now, hence my non-activity in the transfer forum and the United one in general; unless the topic is about gutting the club (not just the squad) and getting rid of the rot, I find my interest wanes in the topic after a few posts because all roads lead back to what is intrinsically, fundamentally and institutionally wrong and these surface level discussions/fixes don't address it. Rather than spread or perpetuate the feeling of evermore foreboding misery and rot, I simply avoid but with no other avenue to take my interest. In the past, it was always a turn to our academy and placing hope there, but I don't do that anymore, either, which is very un-United of me.
A final thing I'll add is my interest in other leagues is at an all-time low now because of how clubs at the top have been allowed to essentially destroy their leagues and make the season a formality you don't even need to tune into to know the final outcomes. Let's call the leagues right now for 19/20: PSG, Barcelona, Bayern, Juventus, City. Wow, congratulations all. This is why the Champions League becomes so important to sort these teams out and reinstate a reality that does not have them running roughshod over those with no means to compete. Leagues are bought all over Europe now, the Champions League has still kept its magic because no club has managed to do the same in it, much to their chagrin.