Another victim to not make it to being a survivor.
It doesn't fecking stop.
I made it to being a survivor and I have my own kids, and by fluke I am.
My mum was probably post natal, and she had 3 under 5, so it was tough for her. But I was the middle child, and I was a boy, unlike my two sisters. Ergo, the depression was laid out on me. What I found out later was there was generational abuse going on. Not just physical.
My mum continued to batter me, from before I can remember, until I left the house to go to uni. Her favourites were the pipe of the Henry hoover, pans, the handle of the feather duster, that kind of stuff. Locking me in cupboards and rooms and boxes were also her penchant, especially as I got older. My first ever stitches were after she'd locked me in the kitchen before school and I accidentally broke the glass asking her to let me out. I also did most of the work around the house and garden. My dad was the arbitrate of static punishment. That's why this Arthur thing is triggering like feck. That nose against the wall for hours. fecking hell. But, he'd also boot me in the kidneys when I was on the floor and break my nose on my 21st birthday. So he wasn't averse to a little violence.
When I was 11, the generational abuse really came to front, my cousin, who from what I can gather was probably raped by his father, raped me. His father had repeatedly raped his younger brother and sisters. My mum was the eldest. I don't know how many times it happened, that whole summer was a blur.
It was probably that that stopped me just taking it, starting to fight back. Not cos of me, but because I have my little sister and other younger cousins from the same family. And I've been fighting since. Not always in a good way. I've been diagnosed with a mixed personality disorder, which is caused by complex PTSD. I have been horrible to everyone I love.
People like this need to be caught much earlier, you get checkups regularly in the first year, but it's only for the kids, no one is asking about the parents. To use a phrase "a stitch in time saves nine"