sparky
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It has affected me yes. I can't even watch adverts which feature babies, you know the Johnsons baby ads. It has been doubly hard in recent times due to allegations that have been made by my two nieces. (If you look at some of my recent threads you will see why). But I have to stay focused. I see it that, if I was to do something that would end up with me getting sacked, I will be another victim. And they will not care.Blimey great thread
sparky and Chelt - you both seem to be grounded and reasonable people despite your knowing that particular system inside out from two very different perspectives so
just how difficult is it to remain measured and controlled in the face of mixing with, who you know to be, absolutely hardened evil hard core criminals.? It must really test the self control of either officer or lower grade prisoner - to know what some of these people have done and no doubt have no remorse about it - I take my hat off to you lads - I dont think I could manage that
And how has that effected you both in any way - do you feel it has had any detrimental effect on either of you in the way you deal with live 'outside'?
Fascinating stuff
I am certainly alot more suspicious of people now. I used to meet people and trust them, now I meet people in a cagey way. They have to earn my trust.
It is also easy to see, that in some cases, there but for the grace of God, it could have been me. A lot is linked with drugs and the need to get more by whatever means. There can be a case, where someone has had a bit too much to drink, hits out and hits in the wrong place, killing someone. The intention was probably just to punch, but it shows you that under the influence, you are not in complete control.
Then there are cases that still get me. Because there is no sensible explanation. Yes, I believe some are just pure evil.
It can be hard talking to a prisoner in a civil manner and restraining yourself when the picture of the victim keeps flashing into your mind.
But its my job.